Cassie

You think I want this? You think I don't care? Believe me, I want to... be here, do things. I want to graduate from high school, and I want to go to the stupid winter formal... I have this friend, and it would be fun to go with him. Just to dance and hear lame music to wear a silly dress and laugh and stuff... I'd like to go. There's a lot of stuff I'd like to do. I'd love to ice skate at Rockefeller Center. And I'd love to see my cousins grow up and see how they turn out 'cause they're really mean and I think they're gonna be fat. I'd love to backpack across the country or, I don't know, fall in love, but I won't. I just never will.

don't you see?
I wanted to try,
i wanted to see,
that throughout it all,
I would be fine,
I would be happy again.

and i could rest,
finally without having
a care in the world
and now i wonder whether it's even possible.

i want to sleep,
because it's the only time
i can really rest,
won't it be great,
if i never woke up?

won't it be great,
if i just slept,
forever?

yes,
there are times where i want to die,

but why don't I?
because









yes,
why don't I?













because i'm finding a reason to live.