Andrew Wells: friend; comrade; guestage;

he gave her the epic death that she didn't actually get to have.

some lies are better than the truth.
some lies tell the story.

behind each cry,
is a story,
behind each hidden tear,
is a legend.

now why do i ponder on what's going to happen to me when i fall,
it's not as if i'm going to live to see it anyway

Rupert,

Oh, right. Yes, yes. Um, always behind on the terms. Still trying not to refer to you lot [Americans] as 'Bloody Colonials'

i should just not bitch about anyone,
and really mean it,
no more exceptions,
no more sniggering,

Mama Said, Mama Asked.

we are two people who are friends,because it would be inconvenient not to.

I'm beyond tired,
I'm beyond depressed,
I'm standing at the edge of sanity,
and i want to die.

I wish I strong,
I do,
I don't wish for myself to feel
all these things that I'm feeling
I don't want the skies to fall,

Hidden tears tell another story,
I need help.

You don't want my carrots? Then you'll go hungry.

24 February 2009.
2236hours.
Night.

so tears fall down,
and the sun sets,
quietly,
but everything makes an impact.

So now that everything is quiet,
will you finally listen to me?
finally,
in the darkest time of night,

will you look me in the face,
and ask me,
i'm sorry,
what were you saying?
not because you weren't listening,
but because you just wanted to understand.

and everything is on pause,
i look at you,
i look at her,
and i have to keep quiet,

i know want to just snatch you away for just half an hour,
just 30 mins,
to tell you
that i've missed you,
all the time we had spent talking,
all the time i would be the only one knowing
what on earth you were talking about,

mama says it's just a phase,
that it would pass,
that she's drifting away
because there's something going on in her life,
and whether or not she will come back,
or if she just drifts away and disappears,
aren't you glad she was once your friend?

mama knew that i was troubled.
but thought that it was just a phase,
and she doesn't want to see me be so sad,
and asked me,
if i wanted to see a psychologist.

8 past 7

and we sleep tonight,
knowing,
hoping,
that tomorrow will be a better day.

Covering Up

Oh. Hey. Hi. Well, I see our preparations for the... school... pep-dance-cheer-drill-contest are really coming along. "Bring it on!"

why do people lie?
is it so they can have an easy way out?
so they can escape the punishment,
and the consequences?
to be a hypocrite?
so others will like you more?

no,
for a simple reason,
people lie,
because the truth is too ugly to hear,
because the truth is what hurts the most.

so really,
it isn't the truth that makes a person,

it's the lies.

Relapse Five!

That's where we high five,
then it's awkward for a little bit,
and then we high five again!

thanks

hello 'bah-loo-ku'
hahaha
thanks for the great present ytd.
i had fun.
it was really nice and funny.
i loved it.

many many thanks!

LOVE
'cherm-ber-daat'
:D

James

When I say I love you, it's not because I want you, or because I can't have you. It has nothing to do with me. I love what you are. What you do. How you try. I've seen your kindness, and your strength. I've seen the best and the worst of you, and I understand, with perfect clarity, exactly what you are. You're a hell of a woman. You're the One.

Trust.
you have it, or you don't.

it's there,
and then it's gone.

just like that.

it takes a million years to build,
and in a second,
just that little second,
and everything is gone.

Walk Through the Fire.

These endless days are finally ending in a blaze.

in small ways and in bigger ones,
we all know that this year,
is a year that everyone changed,
for better or for worse,
but we like it,
the friends,
the company,
and level of maturity.

and happiness will prevail through the darkness of times.

LEVINSON.

time goes by, and everything drops away, all the cruelty, all the pain, all the humiliation, it all washes away, I miss my friends, I miss my enemies, I miss the people I talk to everyday, I miss the people who never knew I existed.

POLLY PUT HER FUCKING KETTLE ON.

good times,
are meant to be missed,
when times are bad.

will you be nice for once,
and tell me
fine,
we'll do it your way.

i'm tired,
i really am,
just by thinking.
of all the things happening around me,
the endless questions of what's going on in your mind,
if i'm such a good friend,
i should know don't I?

SACRIFICE.
BE CONSIDERATE.

Life is Sick and Twisted.

your death by information won't disturb the peace on distant stars.

you see,
you only treasure life,
when you see someone else lose it,

why doesn't everyone see it this way,
everyone fears death because it's so unexpected,
so sudden,
it can be taken away from you in just a moment,
and there you leave your loved ones to mourn for you,.

this is what it means,
CARPE DIEM.

seize the day.
you never know when you're going to die,
so why not get everything done first?
don't leave anything hanging,
finish whatever you have to finish
before you won't ever get to.

and be brave,
death,
gives life it's meaning,
only those who fear death,
have nothing to live for.

Unstable Fingers

Damn. I never knew you were that cool.
Well, you always were a little slow.

Curvy spots.
Curvy lines.
flawless.

and now i find myself unable to write
and doodle what i want to doodle.

and then when twice the charming
songs that sing together in perfect harmony,
is the thing you call chaos.

blabber.
tired.
wanna sleep.

so for all the things i have changed,
i have never thought i would see the day
where i lost even more confidence then
what little of it i had in the past.

i can let the lyrics flow out of my head,
to this electronic writing pad,
because it's all buttons,
z will always be at the bottom right hand corner,
but when you use a pen,
it has to show an elegance
that tells your life story.

so tell me again,
why is it that i should close down my blog?

The Body

When life gives you lemons, make lemonade.
Just remember, it's always darkest just before the dawn.

I don't understand. I don't understand how this all happens. How we go through this. I mean I knew her, and then she's, there's just a body, and I don't understand why she can't just get back in it and not be dead anymore. It's stupid. It's mortal and stupid, and, and everyone is crying and not talking, and I was having fruit punch and I thought, well, she will never have any more fruit punch, ever. And she'll never have eggs, or yawn, or brush her hair, not ever and no one will explain to me why

Fool For Love

You have a death wish. Sooner or later, you're gonna want it. And the second- the second - That happens... You know I'll be there. I'll slip in... have myself a real good day.
Here endeth the lesson.

A Dark Love,

Being with you touches me,
more than I can say,
but since I'm only dead to you,
I'm saying stay away.

everyone has their little secrets,
it can be an addiction,
an affair,
a murder,
something you keep locked up somewhere
you hope no one will stumble across,
sleeping with someone you hate,

have you ever wondered
why you're keeping it a secret?

because it's wrong.

Early Pearly Says.

"hello i think spike is cute
haha he is such a Q-T 3.14236765441"

write a note.

He got the kid?What kind of lawyer is that?
A good one. He won full custody.
Oh yeah... getting the kid is winning isn't it?

"You have luck with children"

EWWWEWWWEWW.
i hate it that i'm the one suffering,
and when i finally speak up,
it's my fault.


i have the worst memory.

Back To The Beginning

we fight all the demons in our lives,
the inner ones,
the outer ones,
what if we can't fight them anymore?
what if we defeated all of them?

we can beat the down our demons until the cows come home,
and then we can beat up the cows.
but what does that mean,
is evil really going to give up?

no.
evil is always going to come back,
stronger,
always.

they say the only thing that can possibly fight and win evil,
is good,
is hope,
faith,
all that bullshit.

it's ourselves,
we have to taste evil before we can even fight it,
or possibly win it.

but that's not why we fight,
we do it,
because there are things worth fighting for.

Bring on the Night.

I'm beyond tired. I'm beyond scared. I'm not ready? They're not ready. They think we're gonna wait for the end to come, like we always do. I'm done waiting. From now on, we won't just face our worst fears, we will seek them out. We will find them, and cut out their hearts, one by one.

what is going on in that mind of yours?
you keep me guessing your every move,
and i don't know what to say,
you've changed.
i've changed.

now what?
can we still be as good friends as before,
pouring our secrets out to one another?

i remember when i would be the first one to help you,
whenever you needed something.

and now,
i don't feel the urge,
or rather,
i don't want to.

and there are times where i question my place
and hers,
when in the past,
i knew i came first,
always.

so now that everyone has changed,
tell me,
where do i stand?

Glinda.

bunnies aren't just cute like everyone supposes.
they got them hoppy legs and twitchy little noses.
and what's with all the carrots?
what do they need such good eyesight for anyway?

in the link that tied us there,
in the simple talk,
and rejection,
i lost all hope.

moving on.

i lost my funny. I LOST MY FUNNY!

I want the fire back.

in this place
and this hour.

now what do i do?

i want to say things,
and i have to think,
hey wait,
no.
the old me would never say something like that.

now what do i do?

it was the one thing i would give anything to keep.
because if i had it,
it was as if i had everything else.

now what?

and i'm whining.
and i'm tired.
and i'm confused.
and i'm colourless.

I LOVE BARNEY STINSON.

Friends are supposed to support each other in everything they do.
Yeah, if you're a smurf.

DADADA
dadada
DADADA
dadada
dadedadedade

Why does a man do what he musn't? For her. To be the kind of man who would nev-To be a kind of man. And she will look upon him with forgiveness... and everybody will forgive and love. And he will be loved. So everything's okay, right? C-can we rest now?Can we rest?

fuck you, fuck you very very much.

screw all people who resort to violence.
screw all people who are selfish.

last but not least,
screw all people
who whine and scream for no good reason.

AND
screw those with bad advice to give.

a problem is not fun you idiot.

no. 0196

what's wrong with being clingy?
we just want to know if you love us.

red.
orange.
yellow.
green.
blue.
purple.

colours of the rainbow.
but come on,
we all just want the pot of gold at the end of it.

2 February

WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU PEOPLE? Why do you treat people like this? So now my life is unscrewed, thanks for screwing it up all over again.

CHILDISH.
PLAIN CHILDISH.

oh and BTW,
there should be a reason if people don't like you,
whether it's a misunderstanding,
or you yourself is in the wrong,
why not just clear it up with them?

I CANNOT STRESS ON HOW MUCH YOU SHOULD NOT DON'T CARE.

I,We,They,She,He,It. You.

don't lie and say that it's ok,
it's alright if there's nothing more to say.

and i see your name on the contact list,
and i click on your name,
and i hesitate,
out of all this crap,
what if you don't feel the same way?

what if the answer isn't what i want?
what if,
it turns out that we are really just friends,
nothing more nothing less?
what am i going to do,
wondering all the time whether we could have worked out?

Unforseen

A muscle cramp? In your pants?

i really need a new way of writing.
this is getting boring.