Unstable Fingers

Damn. I never knew you were that cool.
Well, you always were a little slow.

Curvy spots.
Curvy lines.
flawless.

and now i find myself unable to write
and doodle what i want to doodle.

and then when twice the charming
songs that sing together in perfect harmony,
is the thing you call chaos.

blabber.
tired.
wanna sleep.

so for all the things i have changed,
i have never thought i would see the day
where i lost even more confidence then
what little of it i had in the past.

i can let the lyrics flow out of my head,
to this electronic writing pad,
because it's all buttons,
z will always be at the bottom right hand corner,
but when you use a pen,
it has to show an elegance
that tells your life story.

so tell me again,
why is it that i should close down my blog?