Unwanted Unhappiness

so i've been pondering
that there may have been
a mistake,
being paranoid about
something that
i should be very happy about,
maybe i'm scared that,
if i screw up,
everything will go down the drain.
why can't i understand,
that,

hey,
i did it.
this was,
and is
what i wanted from the start,
if i continue to think,
and be paranoid about
what others think,
i'll really screw up,

she said i was in.
that means,
i AM in.
she picked me,
cause i stood out.
and i have to do my best,
to show her,
she picked me
for the right reason.

all i have to do now
is give up fast food.