SHUT YOUR MOUTH

do i feel mean?
do i think i'm very mean?
yes.
of course.

she didn't do anything to me,
yet she hurt me.
just by being herself,
you know she changed.
but i don't.
i don't see why you hated her in the past,
but find her nice now.
and i can't stand it that i hate her.

this stupid thing
where the on/off switch has a mind of it's own.
yes.
i know it's stupid.

yes.
i know she's my friend,
so?
does she ever think that it may be her fault?
just admit that somehow,
no one is perfect?

and does she know how hard she is making my life?
just because she doesn't want to have one,
doesn't mean i can't.

i have MY own friends,
MY own life,
and i don't want her touching everything i'm doing.

i need something,
that is my own.
something to call my own?
without her giving her stupid comments.

is that so much to ask?

have you seen the way she treats me?

i don't like it when she has such control over me.

and i hate it that i'm the "bad guy" here
cause she "changed".

and in my dream i slapped that little girl so hard she fell to the floor, and i slapped her again, and again and again and again and told her that she just be a mute, it would be better for everyone on earth, and then the people around looked at me like i was a lunatic, because all she did was laugh, irritatingly, and noisily, and then the girl cried, and there she is, the center of attention.